Not gonna lie… Fall is one of my favorite seasons but so far it’s been the hardest season yet since Qs passing 😔😢🍃🍂🍁
I still can’t believe this is my new life… 😢
But I am reminded this morning that “Autumn is Gods way of showing us how beautiful change can be.”
Change is inevitable … some changes are easier to embrace than others. I am not sure I will ever be able to embrace this season, because I don’t have a desire to have a season without Q. It’s such a weird thing, one I can’t quite explain. Honestly, if I think too much ahead I literally physically get sick.
I don't know if you fell on my Crazy Busy Mama blog because you are struggling with grief too, or just happened on this blog post because of my Crazy Busy Mama recipes blog, but either way I am glad you are here. I am knew to this grief struggle, as I lost my sweet husband unexpectedly on April 9th 2024. That day marks the day my entire world came crashing down. If you are new to this section of the Blog here is Quintin's Story and the events surrounding his sudden and unexpected death.
Continued…
So I am trusting 🍃🍁🍂 the process and leaning into Who makes all things beautiful in His timing 🧡
It’s not the story I wanted… or even one I like to share. Although, I am confused and sad I know God is still writing my story. I didn’t choose this story! However, DESPITE is ALL, I choose to get up and fight every day for healing for me and my kids ❤️🩹 I pray for a fire ❤️🔥to burn in my heart for HIM to use me. I don’t know what that looks like and I am not sure I want to know too far out… I just want to be willing to wake up in my emptiness with a hearts posture to be willing to be part of HIS story for me.
I can whine and cry about this NOT being the story I wanted… and trust me there are days- but I have decided to stop trying to understand WHY ME and start moving into “WHAT NOW”?
Are you in the depths of despair and wrapped up in frustration as the story you never wanted is unfolding right in front of your eyes?? 💔😢
Ugh… it’s so incredibly difficult and painful!
What if… you change the looping narrative of “WHY ME” to “WHAT NOW”?
Stepping out in faith… Action steps towards the unknown is incredibly hard 😔 the more I think the more I question and get trapped in FEAR and I am DONE with FEAR!
Are you also done with being the victim of your circumstances and being controlled by fear!?
If yes… then
Take that first step with me join me in asking each morning … ⬇️⬇️⬇️
Good morning God… what are you up to today, and how can I be a part of it?! It may very well be the courage that you need to take a step forward today.
He is Still Writing Your Story…
Remember, even in your depths of despair or this word full of confusion. He remains faithful.
He is still writing your story! 💔❤️🩹
These lyrics are Every thing and allows me to keep that eternal perspective.
“Sometimes I fall to my knees and pray
Come Jesus come, let today be the day
Sometimes I feel like I’m gonna break
But I’m holding on to a hope that won’t fade
Come Jesus come
We’ve been waiting so long
For the day You return to heal every hurt
And right every wrong
We need You right now
Come and turn this around
Deep down I know this world isn’t home
Come Jesus come”
Hold on my friend and start asking God each day … How can I be part of your story?
I am excited to announce, I have started my very own Crazy Busy Mama mug collection. “Autumn is God's Way of Showing How Beautiful Change Can Be” is on of my signature exclusive mugs and you can SNAG IT HERE – Each one of my designs comes with my CBM signature with a 💗✝️ on each. I hope you enjoy having coffee with me each morning and these exclusive CBM designs encourage you to put your best foot forward each day!
Don’t know you personally, but 🩷 you!
As always, I am thankful for your christlike example and your words of encouragement. I love your mugs and I’ve ordered a couple. As your one cup says, you are amazing you are chosen you are never alone you are victorious. You are capable, strong, and you are enough. Hugs of strength and love to you, Lori and your family.
One of your videos came up in my TikTok feed a couple weeks ago. I had never seen your blog or come across you prior to that. I do think God put you there for me. I lost my fiance Scott unexpectedly May 5, 2024. It has truly been absolutely devastating. We were together 10 years and engaged for a short 8 months. I cherish my time with him but am struggling with my new reality, a reality that some days I can’t hardly stand to face. When you said, “Honestly, if I think too much ahead I literally physically get sick.” I feel this very deeply. He was my best friend, my soulmate, my everything (next to my kids) and I struggle to figure out life without him to share it with. I wanted you to know that your postings are helping me, even if on the bad days, I want to tell everyone to go step on lego and let me be sad. 🙂 Its just almost a relief to know that the grief I’m feeling is normal and that I’m not being dramatic. Its REAL. Very real. So, this lost soul thanks you.
This is totally me too dot Lori has helped me through my grief of 32 years of marriage. He was my rock. I miss him so much so thankful for her encouraging words and showing her true feelings through the tears… Which we all are sharing wow… Who knew, it could be so painful… I also lost my daughter in November 1923 and my husband in February 1924 I recently tried acupuncture… Let’s face it up to the point. I’ll try anything to lift this heaviness from my chest and for the tears to not be quite so close to the surface every Minute of every day… They do have a service with acupuncture for grief. I did it yesterday and I have to say… I do feel a little less heavy in n my chest …. A little easier to breathe . Just thought I’d share. I’m so sorry for your grief and Lori’s grief and my daughter has helped me by saying… Next right thing Mom… we are going to do the next right thing !!!maybe that will help you too…❤️Marilyn Gist
You are so beautiful inside & out!!! Thank you for your inspiration & encouragement for us out here. Sending 💕 from Arkansas!!! CS
Thank you so much for sharing your story of loss and grief . I just lost my Mom on September 14 2024 , after a battle with dementia, I had taken care of her at home till 4 months ago. She was my best friend , and I feel lost without her .My Dad passed 4 years ago during COVID , I am divorced with an adult son , 28. He is not married , and no grandchildren ,I am so sad and lonely, I don’t want to face another day . I have no purpose, and I don’t want to volunteer somewhere . I dread cleaning out her house and 62 years of her things that were important to her .I get physically sick when I think ahead or about holidays .